June 11th, 2013
I'm in my new apartment 200 miles from home and in another state. My best friend aka husband is back home working diligently until his new job begins down in Raleigh. Oh how I miss him so very much. My children are snuggled in bed and I'm sitting here staring at the walls and how bare they are right now. It's been driving me crazy but Ive pledged to myself that I will not decorate until everything is unpacked. So Im unpacking with urgency. That and I know the faster I work the sooner my children will become more at ease with the decisions we've made to move so far away. (I am so blessed with the children I have been given, their willing and flexible spirits amaze me. They've not uttered one negative word about leaving.) However, I can tell you Ive mapped in my mind where each picture, fixture, and art work will go. ;) Thats called multitasking, Friends. The blank walls are a bit symbolic; don't you think? We too are clean slates; we've been stripped down to the bare essentials. A four thousand square foot home to a thousand. It feels good, liberating, and exciting... My whole life was mapped out before me in VA. How boring and depressing. I love my family, my friends and our church back home but I know theres more God wants me to accomplish and experience. I can feel it burning in my soul waiting for someone to hit the release valve. I do wish I could get some of our closest family members to be a little more supportive but like Jesus, true understanding can not be achieved in your hometown. Read here: http://home.earthlink.net/~ronrhodes/qjesusmiracles.html
My heart is alive here. Where we go and what we do is solely Gods prerogative now. We have given Jesus the wheel.
I know I'm just starting this book and I'm opening it with high expectations and aspirations but with God all things are possible. I may stumble but I will not fall.
